You are welcome to join us for our weekly Monday night Zoom meditation, dharma talk, connection, and discussion evenings from 6:45 - 8:30pm. 

Email to receive an invitation and a link to join the evening.

Speaker schedule:

6/01 - Michelle Brandt, Sensei
6/08 - Rachel Mansfield-Howlett, Roshi
6/15 - Deanna Hopper, Meditation Instructor
6/22 - Rachel Mansfield-Howlett, Roshi
6/29 - Rev. Chris Bell, Head of Practice
7/06 - Michelle Brandt, Sensei

(All of our in person meetings have been cancelled due to the virus until further notice.)

CityZen Spring Sesshin Yunmen’s Treasure
May 29 to June 5
St. Dorothy’s Rest, Occidental, Sonoma County

Sesshin is an ancient Zen tradition; it’s a special environment built to help you discover your own awakening. Often in your daily life, the light of your attention goes out from you into the world; during sesshin you turn the light back inward into your own heart/mind.

Our Great Spring Sesshin promises to be truly special as we look toward our theme of Yunmen’s Treasure. 

This is a one-of-a-kind opportunity to work with three women teachers in the koan Zen tradition. CityZen’s lead teacher, Rachel Mansfield-Howlett, Roshi will be teaching alongside Michelle Brandt, Sensei of CityZen and Megan Rundel, Sensei of Crimson Gate.

We practice in a relaxed traditional form of sesshin, with lots of dharma talks and opportunity for meeting individually with the teachers. Our silent meditation retreat is held at St. Dorothy’s Rest in Camp Meeker, with stunning views of the redwoods and rolling hills, not to mention handmade vegetarian meals that are quite wonderful! We’ll take up this classic koan together:

Yunmen’s One Treasure

Yunmen said to the assembly, “Within heaven and earth, in the midst of the cosmos, there is one treasure, hidden in the body. Holding a lantern, it goes toward the Buddha hall.
It brings the great triple gate and puts it on the lantern.”

What is this one treasure and how can you find it in your very own body? Let’s find out together.

Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi is a koan master in the Pacific Zen School lineage and the Founder and senior teacher at CityZen in Santa Rosa, CA. With degrees in botany and law she is also a public benefit environmental attorney. She is a contributor to The Book of Mu: Essential Writings on Zen's Most Important Koan and The Hidden Lamp, Stories from Twenty-Five Centuries of Awakened Women

Michelle Brandt Sensei is authorized to teach in the koan Zen tradition by Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi. She has practiced Zen for over 30 years, trained as an interfaith spiritual director and medical qigong practitioner, and has been a student of the Way of Tea in the Urasenke School since 2010.

Megan Rundel Sensei is authorized to teach in the koan Zen tradition by Joan Sutherland Roshi. She has practiced Zen for over 25 years, is the founder of Crimson Gate in Oakland, CA and is also a clinical psychologist and psychoanalyst.  

For more information and registration, email Gary Brandt:
Full-time 7-day rate: $975. Some part-time and scholarship opportunities are available. 
Nothing has ever been hidden. 

In W.G. Sebald’s The Rings of Saturn, there's an interview with an English farmer who at one point says:

“I have always kept ducks, even as a child, and the colours of their plumage, in particular the dark green and snow white, seemed to me the only possible answer to the questions that are on my mind.”

Monday Night Speakers January — April 2020 Santa Rosa

Jan 06 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Jan 13 – Michelle Brandt Sensei
Jan 20 – (MLK Birthday) Michelle Brandt Sensei
Jan 27 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi

Feb 03 – Deanna Hopper, Meditation Instructor
Feb 10 – Michelle Brandt, Sensei
Feb 17 – (Presidents' Day) Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Feb 24 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi

Mar 02 – Michelle Brandt Sensei
Mar 09 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Mar 16 – Michelle Brandt Sensei
Mar 23 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Mar 30 – Deanna Hopper, Meditation Instructor

Apr 06 – Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Apr 13 – Michelle Brandt Sensei
Apr 20 – (Spring Equinox) Rachel Mansfield-Howlett Roshi
Apr 27 – Deanna Hopper, Meditation Instructor

Your right place is always just beneath your feet.
Fish don’t run out of ocean,
And birds enjoy the endless sky.
How will you be any less fortunate?

Reclaiming the Fallow of the Year

adjective: fallow (of farmland) plowed and harrowed but left unsown for a period in order to restore its fertility.
Synonyms: uncultivated, unplowed, untilled, unplanted, unsown; unused, dormant, resting, empty, bare.

In our northern climes, before the advent of artificial sources of light, the months of winter were a long dark time. Nature too, took her rest and there wasn’t much to do on the land for our farming ancestors. Long nights and cold days meant folks got a break from the busyness of life and entered into a more timeless place. The stillness without encouraged a slowing down, uncovering a stillness within. It’s the place before the formation of ideas; before an opinion or comparison arises. It’s the place of intuition, inspiration, improvisation and creativity.

What did our ancestors do during the long dark winter months? Told stories, stoked the fire, made love, slept, painted, played music, made something simple and hearty to eat, bundled up and took walks.

Modernly, the lights are always on, figuratively and literally. We have lost something important to our well being in converting all of our time to the activities of the light.

This familiar story shows the value of emptying or losing track of the known, to restore the fertile ground.

A man went to visit a teacher to find out about Zen. While the teacher served tea, the professor talked about what he knew about Zen. The master poured the man’s cup to the brim, and then kept pouring.
The man watched the overflowing cup until he could no longer restrain himself. “It’s full! No more will go in!”
The teacher replied, “How can I show you anything unless you first empty your cup?”

Knowing is a kind of filter that limits our vision and closes off possibility. In other words, we only see what our knowing will allow us to see. Allowing ourselves a period of fallow both empties and widens the field. Laying down the realm of the known and unknown, relinquishing our usual tendencies to form opinions and judgments, we enter the vast and wide of the Great Way itself and allow ourselves to be reshaped by this undoing.

An old master said: “The way is vast and wide, how could it ever be a matter of knowing or not knowing? Knowing is arrogant; not knowing is stupidity; the way is far beyond both of these.”

Practices for the Dark of the Year

Slowing down.

Doing a single task with all your attention gives you a needed break from the jar of constant distraction. Doing a thing, wholly, brings its own kind of joy and you can learn to rest again in the gentle peace of everyday things. When you’re sitting with a friend, give them your full attention. If you are walking, just walk. If you are sautéing onions, notice their color and smell as they cook, the rhythm of the spoon in your hand.

Give yourself time to do nothing.

This winter sit in candlelight, stare into a fire, go outside and watch the moon and stars, listen to the rain fall, sit by the ocean and watch the waves roll in and out, rest on a bench and watch birds and passersby, rest by a lake or a river and notice the insects and trees and the sound of water over pebbles.

Put down your electronic devices.

Of course. Of course! A couple hours before bedtime, or for a time early in the morning as you are waking, put away your devices and the sounds they make to alert you of emails and phone calls.


Sweet sleep restores our bodies and allows the mind to rest, to dream, to let the intelligence of all things find its way into our consciousness.          


Anywhere. A short stroll or a long walk about, it’s what our bodies are meant to do. It reminds us of the true pace of life and shows us the aliveness of the world.

Read aloud to each other.

A forgotten art, we can take it up again. Like walking instead of riding, we slow down to take in more. Resting in the cantor of the human voice, we savor what we may otherwise have missed.

Make love.

No explanation necessary, right?                       


Be quiet and listen. Notice when judgments and opinions arise, when you are comparing yourself to others or complaining about unimportant things. Then, just return to the place where you are.

Cook simple meals and share them together.

Find a local farm, bakery or supplier and gather some things that look good to you. Learn to cook a few seasonal meals that you will enjoy making. The simpler, the better.

Notice what has already been given to you.

You are given this life as a human being, each of your senses, this fine body, the moon and the stars, the green leaf, and watery sea, a home, food to eat, and each other.

May you truly enjoy the blessings of this season.